

                                    The Analyst

                                    Part 1                 

                                   


      Jan had started seeing Doctor Stevens only after getting
tremendous pressure from her best friend, Donna. Jan insisted that she
really didn't have a problem that required the services of a
psychiatrist, but Donna insisted that she talk to Dr. Stevens, so she
went. Jan still believed that she didn't need to go, but had been
learning so much about herself and her life that she went each week.
Besides, she really liked the Doctor, and could afford the visits, so
why not.

      I should pause, here to tell you a little about Jan. She is Vice
President of Sales with a medium size electronics manufacturer in the
midwest. She is respected by everyone who deals with her as a tough but
fair executive who knows her business and manages people very
effectively. Her sales force calls her "The Iron Lady" but not in her
presence. It is obvious the first time you meet her that she is a
beautiful woman who could easily have become a top paid model or
actress but in her role as a business woman, she tones the beauty down
to "attractive" by her dress, demeanor and sparing use of makeup. She
wears very conservative business suits, doesn't smoke and drinks only a
little wine on social occasions. Jan is thirty-six, but most people
believe she is only in her late twenties. Those who know her a little
better are aware of the fact that she has been divorced for about three
years from a man who tried for five to deal with her strong personality
but finally admitted defeat and went to live with a woman almost ten
years his junior and seems to be ecstatically happy, now. Jan has seen
three men off and on, since her divorce but is "too busy" to think
about a long term relationship. Her only close female friend is Donna,
whom she has known since college and whom she trusts with her deepest,
darkest secrets. In fact, Donna is one of the few people in the world
who know about Jan's "other life", the one that prompted her to insist
that Jan talk with Dr. Stevens.

      Six months ago, Jan was on a business trip to Boston when she met
a man in the hotel bar and found her self talking with him for hours.
Dan was unlike anyone she had ever known. From the first, she was
fascinated by his quiet manner and soft speech and the
contradiction represented by the "fire" she saw in his eyes. He made no
attempt to pick her up or hit on her. In fact, she was the one who kept
the conversation going and she began to realize that she would have to
say "goodnight" to this fascinating man and might never see him again.
That prospect made her sad and she resolved not to let it happen. When
it was time for her to return to her room, she initiated an exchange of
phone numbers and said she hoped they could get together on her next
trip to Boston. He smiled as they parted and kissed her very softly on
the cheek (somehow, she had hoped for more).

      The next trip was only two weeks later. She told herself that it
was important that she follow up with the new potential customer right
away but deep inside she knew that the Northeast Regional Sales Manager
was the best in the company and could easily handle things at this
early stage of negotiations. She had never before arranged a business
trip for personal reasons and refused to admit to herself that she was
doing so now. Dan picked her up at her hotel and they talked of nothing
in particular as he drove her to a small French restaurant. Over dinner,
she found herself drifting away from the conversation several times as
she tried to gain an understanding of what she was seeing and feeling
in his eyes. Over coffee, she told him that she really didn't want the
lovely evening to end (hoping he would take the hint). He said, "We
could stop by my place for a nightcap, if you like." She had to
restrain herself from blurting out "Oh, Yes!" and said, demurely, "I
think that might be very nice." Dan looked at her for several moments,
then took her hand gently into both of his. It was like an electric
shock and she only half heard him say, "But, there is something I think
you need to know..." When he knew that his words had reached her brain,
he continued, "I am a very strong willed man and I require my lovers to
place themselves completely under my control. If you don't feel
comfortable with that, perhaps it would be better if we had our
nightcap at the bar in your hotel."

      Jan only partly understood the meaning of his words, but she knew,
without question, that she had to be alone with him and the sooner, the
better. Her mouth was dry as she nodded slightly and replied, "I'd
really prefer your place." They talked a little as they drove to his
house but Jan's mind was filled with questions. She really didn't know
Dan very well and had surprised herself by saying she would go with
him.  She had a strong sense that she could trust him and needed
desperately to be in his arms and feel his body pressing against hers.

      It was a fairly large, old house on a quiet residential street
and it was obviously well cared for. Even in the dark, she could see
that the lawn was well manicured and dotted with big, old oak trees. He
parked the car in the drive and came around to open her door. He took
her hand lightly as they walked up the front steps. He unlocked the
door and reached in to turn on the hall light before allowing her to
enter. When they were in, he closed and relocked the door then,
escorted her to a very modern looking great room. It was clear that
someone had remodeled the old house extensively and the great room had
probably once been a living room and dining room. She turned and
offered herself for the kiss that she fully expected. He took her (so
gently) into his arms and their lips met. Almost immediately, their
tongues were teasing each other and she felt a great welling up of need
and desire. Too soon, he broke the kiss and stepped back slightly,
holding her hands in his.

      "As I told you," he began, "I will expect you to do exactly as I
ask.  If, at any time, you want to stop, you must say 'That's enough'.
When you say those words, our time together will be at an end and I
will take you back to your hotel. Do you understand?" She was shaken by
the stern tone of his voice and the seriousness of his words, but she
nodded. Jan was beginning to understand that she was to be submissive
to his wishes and she found herself both frightened and excited by the
situation.  "After all", she reassured herself, "I can stop it any time
I want." It never occurred to her that she would soon lack any desire
for her time with Dan to end.

      "First, I want you to remove your pantyhose and panties.", he
directed.  She started to protest, but he held up his hand. There was
no mistaking the meaning of his gesture and she found herself
standing before him taking off her shoes, followed by her undergarments
as he had instructed. She looked around for someplace to put the items
she had just taken off but there was nothing within reach so she just
dropped them at her side. "Now, kneel down and open my pants.", he said
quietly.  Her skirt was short enough that when she knelt, she could
feel the soft carpet against her knees, and she reached forward to
loosten his belt and unzip his fly. She was moving as if in a dream,
now, and lowered his pants and briefs to the floor. His semi-hard cock
hung between his legs and she was impressed with its size and shape and
wanted to touch it but wasn't sure if she was supposed to wait for
instructions, so she did nothing. Dan kicked off his shoes, pulled his
socks free and pushed the pile of clothing aside with his foot. He
removed the rest of his clothes in silence as she knelt motionless
before him.  When he was completely undressed, he said, "Show me how
you suck cock." The words stung her.  "Why does he have to be so
direct?", she wondered and looked up into his eyes. He smiled and said,
"Remember, you don't have to do anything you don't want to do."  Using
both hands, she guided the head of his penis between her lips and began
to lick it with her tongue. She was so aroused that she could feel her
juices beginning to leak from her vagina and run down the inside of her
thighs.

      This is essentially the story she told Dr. Stevens on her second
visit.  The first visit had been spent getting to know one another a
little and learning to feel comfortable in the doctor's office. The
second time, Dr. Stevens had said, almost immediately, "Tell me about
why you decided to see me." Jan really didn't know how to  begin so she
just started talking about how she had met Dan and ended up becoming
his "slave" and how "out of character" it was for her to behave this
way but she didn't want to stop. Dr. Stevens rested her chin on her
fingers as she listened to Jan's story and when Jan had paused,
reflecting on the scene she was describing, the doctor asked, "How did
you feel when he was in your mouth?" "I wanted to taste his sperm.",
Jan blurted out, then said, "I'm.. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said
that." The doctor leaned forward to touch her hand and said, "Of course
you should. If that's how you felt. I need to know your feelings and I
don't want you to hold back because you think you may shock me."

      After a short pause, Jan went on. "It was really weird. Dan is an
O.K.  looking guy but not the type I would usually be attracted to. But,
when he told me, straight out, that he wanted me to suck him, it was as
though there was nothing else in the world I wanted more than to make
him come in my mouth. It only took a few minutes before he tensed and I
felt the fist spurts hit the roof of my mouth and I had to start
swallowing. He told me not to swallow but just let it run out my mouth
so I did as he said and I could feel it running down my chin and neck. 
I've never really enjoyed the taste and feel of sperm before, but I
remember thinking how beautiful it was at that moment."

      "When it was over, Dan told me to get down on my hands and knees
and I felt him lift my skirt all the way up and lay it on my back. I
felt very strange with my ass exposed like that but I couldn't do
anything else.  Besides, I felt a thrill like I've never known before
and wanted him to do whatever he wanted to me. I think I knew he was
going to use my ass, but I pretended that I didn't know what he
intended and just waited, kneeling on the floor while he went to a
table and took something out of a drawer. In one way, I dearly wanted
to look to see what he was doing, but in a more powerful way, I didn't
want to know. So, I stayed with my eyes focused on the carpet before me
as he returned and started applying some kind of lubricant between my
cheeks. He came around in front of me and held out a vibrator that was
very narrow at the end, but gradually widened a little. About half way
along it's length, it became much wider and stayed that width to its
very large base. Dan said, 'This will help you become ready for me and
I think you'll find it quite interesting on its own. Have you ever had
a man in your ass?' I looked up at him and said (quite truthfully)
'No.' Then, he went behind me and I felt the tip of the vibrator nudge
against my anus. He turned it on very low and moved it around a little
before working just the end into my opening. As he held it there, I was
aware that my vagina was positively flowing and I
waited for more. He was so slow and gentle, that there was never any
pain as he moved the narrow end in and out in a kind of rhythm and
pushed more and more into me until he reached the place wher it bulged
out wider. Dan put his hand on my back and said, 'This may hurt just a
little, but it won't last long.' I tensed at his words and he said,
'No.  You must remain relaxed.' and he pushed forward steadily as I
felt myself stretching to accept the wider part. There was a sharp pain
as I opened farther than I would have thought possible, but it started
to disappear almost immediately as I felt the whole vibrator sliding in
to the depths of my bottom. He turned up the speed and started fucking
me with this devilish toy as I grunted and groaned and found myself
pushing back to meet each thrust."

      "Suddenly, he pulled it out. I gasped and I felt him place the
head of his cock against my slightly open anus. He pressed forward
steadily until his stomach was resting against my cheeks and his legs
were tight against mine. I could feel him all the way up inside me and
I started to come. I kept coming as he fucked my ass as deeply as he
could until he finally came and slowly withdrew."

      Dr. Stevens was quiet for a while, then asked, "Jan, why do you
think you liked it?" "I think it's because I'm always in control at
work", Jan replied, "and I really don't have a very exciting life
outside the office. I know I was searching for something before I met
Dan, and now I feel like I've found it. The other thing is that it
seems so 'dirty'. I was raised in a very strict environment and all
through college and my career, I've worked hard at being very serious
and straight. I remember thinking, as Dan's sperm was dripping down my
chin, 'If my sales people could only see their boss, now!' It was
really very exciting to think about but, of course, I could never let
anyone know I did anything like that (let alone, loved it). It's hard
enough for a woman to be taken seriously in the business world without
having people think you're some kind of nymphomaniac or pervert."

      "Do you think you're a nymphomaniac or pervert?", Dr. Stevens
asked. Jan thought for a while, then replied, "I guess I don't know. In a way, what I let Dan do to, and with, me seems perverted but when I'm
with him, I just feel so free. That sounds funny, doesn't it? That I
would feel so free when I'm being his slave? Dr. Stevens was quiet for
a few minutes, then said, softly, "Are you going to keep seeing him?"
Jan's response was immediate. "I don't think I could stop. And, I don't
think I want to. Do you think I should?" "I won't tell you what to do",
the doctor answered, "but I am a little concerned for your safety. 
Suppose Dan decides to go too far and no one even knows you're with
him?" Jan said, "I really don't believe that will happen, but it's a
good point. Would it be all right if I leave a message on your
answering machine when I'm going to see him, so at least you'll know?"
Dr. Stevens agreed, and told Jan she wanted her to think through what
she was doing and why, so they could both understand it more fully. Jan
said she would.

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